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A mother’s conflicted heart (and a home photo shoot blunder)

I’m right in the middle of that conflicted whirlwind of heart that mamas get from time to time.

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[14|52: six months]

How I’m enjoying watching my baby grow up.

baby six months old

This age brings with it so many fun milestones… sitting up, little toofers, first foods, rolling around, scooting and crawling, arms stretching wide to be picked up…

baby six months old blue eyes

“Mama” is coming soon. (If that one doesn’t melt you into a giant puddle, I don’t know what will.) It’s such a sweet, sweet age.

blue eyed baby with green background

And yet at the same time, it’s bittersweet. My little baby is becoming less and less mine… and more and more theirs.

six month old baby home photo shoot

The way he relates to the world, to friends, to his daddy, to his big brother…

smiling baby six months old

Clearly there is life beyond his mama.

six month on baby chomping on a block

I’m glad for that. I love to see his relationships budding.

blue eyed six month old baby

But I’d be lying if I didn’t say at times I miss his total dependence on me.

six month old baby with blue eyes funny expression

Liberation and longing all at once – every mom knows that paradox of emotions.

six months old

So joyful to see my boy developing and hitting milestones as he should, signaling that everything is healthy and “right” in this little internal world. But sad that these baby days are so fleeting.

baby blue eyes six month old

I still have time, time to hold him in my arms.

six month old baby black and white image

But my, oh my, that time is disappearing fast.

six month old baby and blocks

I can clearly see that wild longing in his eyes – to crawl, walk, run, go!

super cute blue eyed baby six months old

Happy six months to my baby.

six months spelled wrong

And if you haven’t noticed by now, there is much evidence in these photos that he’s not sleeping through the night at the moment. You did see that most of the photos read “SIX MONHTS” right? Ha!

Yes, I’m severely sleep deprived. Still.

And no. No I didn’t even notice until after taking them, editing them, AND uploading them to facebook. Only then did my friends help me to notice. Ha!

six month old baby boy playing with blocks

But I love him. And I love these photos anyway. They’re very indicative of right where we’re both at these days.

Besides, they will give him something to snicker and chuckle about when he’s twelve… funny old mom.

Dear friends, how do you handle these conflicted emotions of motherhood?

P.S. You might remember a similar blunder with Levi’s Nine MOTHS photos?? You’d think I’d have learned by now….. *sigh* But just for fun, here’s my brown-eyed boy at six months. As gorgeous as these two are, clearly they look nothing alike!

six month old brown eyed boy

 

six months: #14 of my 52 fotos project.
Linking in with other Project 52ers: Styleberry Blog and Courtney Kirkland.


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About Adriel

Adriel Booker is a writer, speaker, and difference-maker living Down Under with her Aussie love and littles where they serve in full-time ministry (and full-time parenting) together. She writes about celebrating motherhood, building families, strengthening faith, enjoying life, empowering women, changing the world, and telling the story.

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13 Responses to A mother’s conflicted heart (and a home photo shoot blunder)

  1. Rachel J. April 11, 2012 at 1:32 am #

    Hehe…you poor thing! I hope you get some sleep soon. But actually, it doesn’t look so much like a blunder…more like it was playfully done on purpose, like he stacked those blocks and he’s just a baby so of course it’s misspelled. It’s cute! (And a great excuse too, don’t you think?) :)

    And his facial expressions are fantastic…I can see how you were just too focused on those to notice. Great shots!
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  2. Tory April 11, 2012 at 2:20 am #

    What adorable pictures! I had no idea about the spelling on “months” until the very last picture when you mentioned it :) … The pictures are what counts, Mama. You are doing a spectacular job!

    -Tory
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    • Adriel @ The Memos April 11, 2012 at 9:53 pm #

      ha! yeah, i totally didn’t notice either. even after two friends alluded to it… i had no idea what they were talking about! (and that was after shooting, editing them, etc!!) it wasn’t until a third friend blatantly (but politely) pointed out the spelling that i could even see it. (one of my closest friends… loving the opportunity to tease me.) ha ha!
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  3. Amy April 11, 2012 at 4:32 am #

    Absolutely love the pictures, and even the misspelling!! I didn’t notice it until you pointed it out, but then again, I am sleep deprived, too. :-) He is a doll!!

  4. Nessa April 11, 2012 at 6:42 am #

    Happy 1/2 birthday! I love these photos… and especially the misspell. Screams real lifemommyhood load and clear.
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  5. Crystal April 12, 2012 at 4:09 pm #

    Just wanted to say hi and that I love your blog – so much that I have added you to my “Blogging Friends” page as one of my must read blogs :)

  6. Alicia April 13, 2012 at 1:14 am #

    Such wonderful photos of your little man, I think I’d blow some of them up…{as in get a big poster size of them} to have on your wall, even with the mis spelling, they are just amazing photos!! To be honest I didn’t even notice the mis spelling till you mentioned it at the end of the post. :) Hope you get some sleep…….
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  7. Adrienne April 14, 2012 at 1:33 am #

    Your pictures are amazing! It is so hard when they start to pull away and interested other people. Sniffle sniffle…
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