the practice of being present by baking cakes and playing chase
[10|52: chocolate face]
Lately, life as mom has been very up and down.
I’m not gonna sugar coat things… I’m exhausted. Truly.
My amazing little sleeper (Judah) is now going on five weeks (or six?) of sleeping like a baby again. (Meaning multiple night wakings. Ugh.)
It’s making me grumpy. Actually, it’s making me want to be grumpy but instead I’m practicing self-control to keep my emotions in check for the sake of everyone else around me. (This also makes me tired.)
But all this sleeplessness and grumpiness (and rising above my own self-ness) is making me very aware of how I prioritize my time, since I literally don’t have the energy to “do it all” the way I’d like.
So “stuff” has been going to the wayside. Filing, projects, reading, emails, and um, even my taxes. (Really must get onto that last one though.)
And as I’m putting “stuff” by the wayside, I’m trying desperately to have more fun with the hours I am awake.
Because they always say that you’ll get to the end of your days and wish you spent more time enjoying the ones you love and less time cleaning the toilet and obsessing over lists.
So there you go.
That’s what I’m trying to do.
We’ve been doing things like baking cakes and building train tracks and playing chase.
And really, I’m still tired. Playing chase makes me tired too…
But it also energizes me.
Because I know that these are the seemingly “fleeting” moments that build themselves into the memory and foundation of a childhood for my boys. And they may not actually remember baking daddy that chocolate cake… but they will remember that their childhood included a mom that was present.
At least, that is my hope.
And I know that for now, this boy certainly had fun. Especially during those fifteen seconds that I turned to rinse my bowl out in the sink.
(Literally from head to toe.)
One great, big, glorious mess.
(Technically, he did nothing wrong… I never did tell him to stay out of the bowl. Cheeky boy.)
Dear friends, have you been “baking cakes” lately? I’m not always getting it right, but I’m doing my best at this whole “being present” thing…