This line across my belly –
It represents a change of plans.
It represents disappointment, loss,
A last minute bend in the road.
It represents overwhelming delight.
This line across my belly –
It represents a new beginning.
It represents hope, anticipation,
The start of a new season,
The end of yearning.
This line across my belly –
It represents a decision to move forward.
It represents sadness, love,
A voice of reason, a whisper of faith.
This line across my belly –
It represents a deep satisfaction,
An unquenchable happiness.
It’s the scar of new life,
The mark of strength and endurance.
It’s an ugly battle wound, a brilliant medal.
It’s elation, it’s treasure,
It’s pleasure, it’s bliss.
This line across my belly –
It’s a reminder of resilience, of the answer,
The will to bounce back.
It’s jagged, yet beautiful…
Numb and alive.
It’s mine, it’s ours.
This line across my belly –
It’s a gift,
It’s grace.
This line is yours…
My heart, my joy.
Related: That Moment {a natural birth}
15 Comments
Angel Armogida
6 August 2010 at 1:10 pmI've given you an award!
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Christy
6 August 2010 at 1:15 pmThat is so beautiful Adriel!!! I'm all teary eyed, thanks for sharing!
The Planet Pink
6 August 2010 at 3:30 pmOh how I related to this. I can't even put it into words… thanks for doing it for me.
Natalie
6 August 2010 at 5:10 pmI have that same line across my belly, and never thought of what it represented. I feel differently about it now after reading your post…it was a beautiful one!
~Lisa~
6 August 2010 at 6:25 pmYou are one good writer! What a great way to express a procedure that most people think differently of (= well done Adriel.
Melissa (Confessions of a Dr. Mom)
6 August 2010 at 10:26 pmThis is so beautiful Adriel. Amazing how these things turn out, our scars of motherhood, whatever they may be, for better or worse, shape us and stay with us forever.
This brought tears to my eyes…so beautiful…
Lynda
9 August 2010 at 5:10 pmThis is so beautiful.
I've had two c-sections; the first a failed natural birth and the second a failed home birth. It's something that stays with me daily, thanks to that scar. A hard enough thing to get over without the daily reminder..
Thanks for sharing this.
Cameron
12 August 2010 at 2:02 amThis really is a wonderful post! You should be proud of that line. It's your reminder of how much you sacrifice, how much you give, how much you do to be a mother! It's a sign of how strong you are!!
Jess
17 August 2011 at 12:01 amBeautifully put. I have never been sad about the line across my belly, it’s how both of my girls came to me. How can it ever be something I look at and feel ugly about? My body will never be the way it used to be, never the same. But what a small, if vain, price to pay for my greatest joys?
Great post.
Eloquent.
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