Letters to a Grieving Mom: Open when you’re invited to a baby shower after miscarriage

This is part of a series called Letters to a Grieving Mom to help women navigate significant milestone days after miscarriage and pregnancy loss.

Letters to a Grieving Mom - Open when you're invited to a baby shower after miscarriage


Dear Grieving Mom,

You knew it was coming and yet it kind of snuck up on you, too, didn’t it? That first baby shower invitation since losing your baby.

It’s hard—accepting the fact that the world spins onward when our own seems to have tipped right off its axis.

I don’t know if you feel like you need permission or not, but I’m going to issue it just in case: You don’t have to attend the baby shower. Really. This is your choice.

If you feel it will break you then think about how you can bless your friend without attending. Can you make a dish for the host to share? Send a card and a gift? Perhaps you can call your friend or write a letter explaining how you are so excited about celebrating her baby and yet don’t feel capable of holding it together in front of all of her friends. Be honest and vulnerable and tell her you’re afraid you’ll burst into tears and ruin her shower, making everyone feel awkward for celebrating in the midst of your pain. She may be disappointed, and yes, it’s possible she’ll think you’re over-reacting if empathy isn’t high in her strengths. But it’s more likely she’ll respect your honesty. She’ll think you’re brave for sharing. She’ll wish there was something she could do to ease your grief. Not all friends are this wonderful, but my hope is that you’ve found friends who are.

I managed to avoid most baby showers when I was feeling vulnerable after my miscarriages, but it helped that we were in a transition and I didn’t have many friends in the childbearing stage at the time. When I was invited to my sister-in-law’s baby shower, I knew I had to go. Not because she wouldn’t be gracious or compassionate if I was to explain my hesitancy, but because I knew would regret not deliberately stepping out of my comfort zone to celebrate the precious baby who would grow up calling me “Auntie.”

I was pregnant at the time, close to the end of my first trimester, and yet I was living with a lot of anxiety about the pregnancy. You’d think having a baby in my own womb would give me courage to attend the shower with confidence but it didn’t. I felt as vulnerable and alone as I ever had, biting my lip as I walked up the stairs and took a deep breath before entering into the party.

Here’s the thing: I didn’t enjoy the party. It was hard for me. I felt like any moment I might bust into tears. (Being super charged with pregnancy hormones surely didn’t help.) I engaged in small talk with women I had never met and I tried to tap into the joy I genuinely felt toward my sister-in-law and her baby. And yet it was hard. The whole thing was hard.

I’m telling you this little story because I think sometimes the brave thing is staying home from the shower. Other times the brave thing is going. Either way, it’s going to be hard. So what is it your heart really wants for this specific time and invitation and relationship?

Will not attending cause a rift in an already fragile friendship? Perhaps you should consider going, but then have another appointment set up mid-party that you have to leave early for.

Will you feel resentful if you drag  yourself there and grit your teeth through the whole thing?

Will you regret not going?

Perhaps if you feel you must go, you can consider having a trusted, mutual friend at the party who will cover for you should you need to leave abruptly.

No one can answer these questions for you, but my point is that there is grace for whatever hard call you need to make. Help yourself forward by setting up the support you need in advance. Decide what you want and then own it. If at all possible, invite your friend in to your process. I pray she’ll respond with grace and that together—in whatever form feels right—you can celebrate the precious life that is her little one.

You’ve got this.




More posts in the Letters to a Grieving Mom series:




Resources to Help You Heal

For further resources to navigate grief after miscarriage and pregnancy loss, or to learn how to best support a friend experiencing loss, please visit my Miscarriage Stories and Resources page. You will also find a free grief journal and a free 7-day devotional.

If you’d like to go deeper in exploring how to grieve with hope, I’ve written a whole book for you:  Grace Like Scarlett: Grieving with Hope after Miscarriage and Loss (available at all major retailers).

Grace Like Scarlett: Grieving with Hope after Miscarriage and Loss by Adriel Booker


Grief Support Groups

Join us for an 8-week “Deep Dive” grief support group to help you navigate life after pregnancy loss. Find out more here.

June Deep Dive grief group with Adriel Booker


Pregnancy Loss Community

Join us at the kindest place on the internet: Our Scarlett Stories – online community, resource library, and more.

Our Scarlett Stories Pregnancy Loss Community with Adriel Booker




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About Author

Adriel Booker is an author, speaker, and advocate based in Sydney, Australia who believes storytelling, beauty, and the grace of God will change the world. Adriel has become a trusted voice in areas of motherhood and parenting, Christian spirituality, and global women's issues. She's also known for her work with the Love A Mama Collective—serving under-resourced women in developing nations through safe birth initiatives—as well as her years spent as a Bible teacher and leadership coach. Her latest book is Grace Like Scarlett: Grieving with Hope after Miscarriage and Loss and she's made the companion grief journal available for free. Find Adriel across all social media platforms at @adrielbooker or sign up for LoveNotes, Adriel's 'secret posts' that aren't published anywhere else online. ✌️


  • Merry
    23 December 2018 at 5:46 am

    I am dying inside. My baby’s name was Scarlett… she should be three months old right now. All I want is a rainbow baby and I don’t even know if I’ll get that. Because I’m not worth it to my husband. I am grieving in more ways then one and can’t stand the holidays right now. I feel fake and tired. I want to sleep until it’s all over. I see babies and bellies everywhere I go. It all hurts deeper then anything I can even express.

    • Adriel Booker
      23 January 2019 at 10:01 pm

      I’m so sorry for your loss, and that you feel so alone in your grief. I’m praying deep peace over you, sister. xo


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